I wish my feelings weren’t a game to you. As much as people tell me to stay away from you, it’s like you’re the bad addiction I have. I wish you would make up your mind and decide what you wanted for your life because not knowing and seeing you frustrated depresses me. I wish you would just be happy for once and be happy for you. I wish you would be conceited for at least twenty minutes. I wish things could be like they were. I wish I could still tell you my secrets and you could tell me yours. I wish you would still play those hand holding games with me. I wish you didn’t experiment with drugs. I wish you didn’t still have feelings for you ex-girlfriend. I wish that you would kiss me. I wish that you could let me move on like I have been trying to.

I did it. I finally told my best college friend I was transferring and the reasons I was and… She was so pissed off about this. Excuse me but you were just fine with me transferring to Louisiana or Pennsylvania. But when it comes to Oklahoma City it’s like fuck this I’m pissed off at you.. I am sorry but this is the first thing I have actually done for myself and have felt happy about. I applied to Oklahoma State University because I thought it was the only school I was good enough to get into. And my dream school was completely shutdown by my parents. I just don’t understand this. Why not just be happy for me. I mean she of all people should know how much I got hurt and how many times I got screwed over by people at the school. She should know that I got my heartbroken twice by two guys I never thought would. She should know that because she was with me when I got my heartbroken all of those times, and when I got screwed over for a job, and how horrible my roommate was to me. I just don’t see why she can’t be happy for me…

Have you ever looked at life and without knowing it, it changed. Like from the snap of a finger. I went through old photos and it was like a distant memory. Sights that hadn’t been seen in a long time, people I haven’t seen in over ten years and an old memory that just popped out. I found a picture of my childhood friend and I. He was from Wisconsin and we haven’t talked since I was twelve and going through the I think I’m so cool because I shop at American Eagle and wear makeup phase. It was so weird. I completely put him at the back of my mind. He was history to me, just a letter and pictures floating around in my box of memories and the past. It got me to start thinking, do we all have that one person from our past and if we do why do they stay locked inside a box that we throw the key away as soon as they go inside the box…

Okay everyone I need help!!! My friend Josephine just graduated from high school, and I have a list but I need to add more to it. She has absolutely nothing for college and has to start new and all over so here’s a list and if you have any ideas please let me know!!!

1. Decorated cooler
2. OSU t-shirt
3. OSU cups
4. Gift cards to PAC Sun and Forever 21
5. Candy
6. Bullet pillow pet
7. Decorated sign
8. Shower shoes and hair holder